life is a postal block

2011-11-21T16:15:00.003+08:00

Studying here in the United States is like a dream come true, but alas some things are always surprising.

So you know how fascinated I always in the movies, granted some things are like the movies but wow, wow, you should see how Caucasians are fascinated with the Asians. I love how they think Asians don't want to mix with them but it's vice versa whereby the Asians dare not mix with the caucasians. Perhaps there are a few in the world who don't want to mix around but for the most part, I think a lot of them don't think the caucasians or the blacks wants to mix with them. Whether cultural differences, or language barrier it's rather interesting to find out that the Americans really really wanna mix with the Asians but are for the most part afraid too. They always comment how the Asians are always sticking together, or how every time the caucasians say hi to them they look away and walk faster. Well, I think they are just 'shy,' or in Singapore terms 'pai seh.' I know my mum would comment that they are Chinese educated.

Personally, I think it's cause of the culture differences some times. Like how Americans are more laid back in their work and Asians are supposedly more 'hardworking.' (Well for most Asians anyway, I'm the exceptional since I'm mostly very laid back as I tend to be very Americanized. )

2011-08-21T08:16:00.003+08:00

In San Francisco now where everything is beautiful, food is delicious and butter is cheap. The weather is cool too even though it's summer and I have a lovely view in front of my window while writing this as I'm staying with my Aunt and jazz music is playing in the background.

So far, I have only been to San Francisco city once and that was looking for a Lake Tahoe tour (but not finding any) and haven't done much touristy stuff as my Aunt has been busy with after dinner guests. But hey, I'm heading towards Yosemite in 2 days time and later on going to Monterey Bay . And, I finally managed to satisfy my Costco white chocolate macadamia cookies cravings and now have one whole box sitting on the kitchen table. Not to mention eating the sweetest cherries anyone could find from SF Chinatown. In case you haven't figure it out, yup I have been putting on a lot of weight.

I just realised that it's kinda weird being on the same time as most of the people I'm following on tumblr.

Next Day Post:

Well, I had cut short writing the day before because I was too tired and was chatting on Skype. So now onto what I did today which was where I did the touristy things by going down to San Francisco city and visiting Fisherman Wharf. I also went to see a play done by the people from Delancey Foundation and can I just say how amazing they were? It was fantastic for an amateur play and the costumes were pretty and the acting was entertaining to boot.

Walking down Fisherman Wharf I think I managed to see all the types of people I usually watch on shows: goths, bikers and sexy spanish guys were just the beginning. What's more I got to eat sweet crabs and al dante cook to perfection lobster pasta. I also think I never ate muscles so fast before and to top it all off, the famous Ghirardelli chocolate ice-cream sundae made everything seemed so wonderful.

Next, I finally saw the famous alcatraz together with the most crooked road in the world (Lomboard Street) . And can I just say SF hills are super steep that it seems I'm getting on the Battlestar Galactica roller coster ride back home. The next stop was UC Berkeley where my mum went through the shock of her life as she realised all her old hangout places is gone (gone, gone). The only thing remaining was the clock tower where we took a picture that was taken nicely by a very friendly freshmen (I love college students, they're super warm and sociable!). When we went to this store to buy some waffles, there was this cashier who could talk about everything to every one and he mistaken me for the student there and I was like, nah it's my mum who was a student and he was like "yeah, I hope everything was the same." My mum vividly shook her head.

To end off the night, my aunt brought her to this lovely Vietnamese place where I finally ate my Bun again! It wasn't as good as Vietnam of course, but I remembered why I loved is so much compared to pho and really missed those Vietnam days.

Well I got to end here, it's nearly 12 and I got to wake up at a godforsaken time to go to Yosemite. Until then!

I'll probably post pictures some other day.

2011-08-17T21:54:00.002+08:00

Okay honestly, I really can't believe I'm leaving Singapore in a couple more HOURS and not coming back for at least 2 years +. God, I"m going to miss my friends and my family.

The weird thing is, I want to spend more time with my father but it's always so hard to talk to him due to his temperament and lack of conversation. So when I had to request things from him it becomes a chore and a very difficult thing to do, thus my sentence usually begins with "Mum..."

But I know time is running short cause his health is not so good these days so perhaps a little distance will actually help us bond more as with skype and all form of connection. Weird how connecting is easier when there is a little mediator in the middle huh.

2011-08-15T02:37:00.001+08:00

Recalling the past,I remembered writing an essay on how film school destroyed my soul, but looking back I think film school is the best thing that ever happened to me.

2011-08-15T01:59:00.002+08:00

Oh wow. wow. I actually remembered my password and username for this particular old blog of mine, which I'm very fond of and the reason why it never closed (that and it helps me remember the links of other people's blog).

Well I decided to start blogging here again because I wanted to do some ranting and although I have a tumblr account now, I thought here was more appropriate than anywhere else because tumblr is just to use for giffing and reblogging spectacular photos and where rants seem out of place even though I do so once in awhile.

And also I know privacy is here because no one visits this blog anymore and I can pretend to talk to people where I'm actually am not (if that even makes sense.)

This blog has seen me though the ups and downs of my life including the tedious Secondary school days where I just wanted to die of studying, but yet fun times of having friends. It then moved on to the beginning of my tertiary education and now is going to follow me into my College life.

Yes, I can't believe it. I made it to college. And this is when the rambles start coming in because seeing my college reviews ain't that good, but goddamn it, it looks great and it has tons of potential and I guess someone got to start somewhere. It sounds like I'm consoling myself, and maybe I am but I remembered posting about researching on college what seemed like ages ago (but it isn't really) and recalled how exciting it was. Granted, I'm not going to the college I dreamt of, but who cares, I'm going to film school and hopefully that counts for something.

I remember how people were saying you shouldn't spend money on film school and now going through part of one I think that is an incredibly stupid statement. Because film school actually trains you for the industry and although you do start from the lowest of the low like anyone else, I believe being in film school actually makes you rise faster in the industry because you know what's the what and actually know what is going on and that helps you in your career. So take that review masters. (Plus, film school is incredibly fun)

So yeah, actually reflecting on this I just remembered I should never hear what people on the internet says. I mean it's great knowing in general, but I guess each makes our own path in the end.

God, how I love to rant.

2010-12-17T00:10:00.001+08:00

Currently, I'm regretting not stopping to listen nor observe what happens around me, and the life cycle the way it goes.

2010-03-25T21:31:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we fail, and it feels as though its the end of a tunnel, especially if one were to believe in fate. I must admit sometimes I feel as though my life is revolved around that fate and luck is part of it. So when it runs out, I'm stuck. Its a temptation to just fall. And then I remember the times when I failed and how I picked myself up and learn from it. But we tend to forget, and find ourselves burrowing into the pits. Insecurity comes like a speed of light, and you wallow in your self-pity until the next day comes. Its a terrible flight. And sometimes you just get so scared. So you allow a little man called courage to come along. And it can be a friend, a family member or even yourself. Write a poetry, sing a song or just spill your guts. and just let yourself be yourself. We all make mistakes after all, and we all have troubles overcoming them. Especially if one were too serious, or take oneself too seriously.

I just remembered, writing does make me feel better. And novels and movies that take me someplace else.

What do you do when you have a bad day, and in need of something to cheer yourself up?

2009-06-30T10:02:00.002+08:00

As it is, I'm a very shot-tempered person who, admittedly may act upon her anger by violently unleashing it. I remembered a time where my temperament caused me to throw a mirror wildly, thankfully, no one was in sight. I recalled little acts of violence which I lashed out on different people, embarrassed and guilty, I would not go into details.

Recently, abuse on parents has been brought to light with more parents admit that their child needs help. It makes me wonder whether these children would remember it for life. I understand anger, the need to explode once in awhile with the irritant of parents. The nagging and the occasional beating can cause the slow build up to unleash.

I find myself finding different ways to unleash it, whether to grab hold on something tightly, or even to feel a little pain. It all works. I wonder what they teach in anger management classes, how to rein in the temper before it explodes disasterly. Probably breathing exercises I suppose.

2009-06-27T23:08:00.003+08:00

As a youth growing up in the 21st century, I must say that technology of any kind are the greatest invention on this Earth. We all know everything is a two way street, but recent events have made me realise that the creation of internet, camera hand phones and of course, the television is a great way to open up to secret disputes and make the world more aware.

I always believe in the freedom of speech, of human rights and preservation. In my humble opinion, I feel that technology can show the world 'wrong doings' of any kind, and allow one to speak out and reach the world. Sure it may cause disputes (the tragic death of the Iranian girl is one such example), but it allows us to understand what is happening around us.

I am, however, not blind of the consequences of technology, especially with pornography at such easy access. Nevertheless, technology has opened a whole new world of communication and has made people open their eyes. Thus, I feel it will be suffocating if one is ever to ban/control the internet or technology in general.

Imagine the boredom without facebook, youtube videos or even blogs. I shudder to think the day I'm unable to fangirl over my favourite idols.

2009-06-17T16:56:00.003+08:00

These days, my reactions are rather slow. I don't seem to be on my game anymore and am not able to dare myself to speak out.

I need to re-create myself, hoping I'll be back to the alert self.

2009-06-15T18:21:00.001+08:00

I have started twitting:

twitter.com/privatehaven

2009-06-15T01:49:00.001+08:00

I just realised how Facebook take up so much of my time, thus I decided to abstain it for a week. Let's see what I can do with those wasted hours.

2009-06-14T12:03:00.002+08:00

I just realised I really like Aston's Ice Lemon Tea, its one of the best fresh lemon tea I had so far.

Dining in NYNY produced fun stories of the daily lives of the Equalities. Oh, and hilarious moments too.
I think I'll remember one sentence for life, though I don't think I should put it down just in case I get murdered.

Remember, when gossiping, always look around you. You'll never know who turns up next.

2009-06-06T23:32:00.002+08:00

My dad is finally (finally!!) going to start eating meat again after six years of abstain. Honestly, I think he does miss eating meat, just that his discipline is much more than I. Although I do respect him for it, I do feel the need for him to eat more meat, his too skinny for his own good.

Celebrated Charmaine's and Shobana's birthday by playing board games today. I saw the Scrabble box while choosing the games and I suddenly felt a pang of longing to play the game. Hopefully, my vocabulary has improved since my seven year old self and am able to compete against my mum. Time to dig out the scrabble board.

Ya know, I think the reason why teenagers think they are immortal is because their parents treat them like they are.

2009-06-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

Oh my, I'm getting sex advertising ads in my e-mail inbox.

2009-06-05T12:21:00.004+08:00

Looking at Esther's blog has made me hungry, but a blog post before I leave for my lunch.

I think I have developed a fear for technology. There are no peaceful days with it, where you're connectable anywhere and I feel as though I'm constantly pursued without any breaks. It has become so bad that my heart lurch whenever my hand phone vibrates and I feel as though it doesn't give me a peaceful sleep. Sure, its useful, like all technologies are, but again like all things there is always a setback.

Occasionally, I feel like having this break whereby I off my hand phone and my laptop and see what goes on. Honestly folks, we are too dependable on these gadgets to entertain and reach us that sometimes it scares my socks off.

'Technology is a two way street' - now I totally get it.

2009-05-30T11:36:00.003+08:00

The problem with cutting a new hairstyle is that it's always a risk. Currently, I feel as though I am some Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde with my hairdo of a side long and a side short. It wasn't supposed to be like that, but the only consolation is, its rather unique. Hopefully, my classmates wouldn't burst into laughter at the side of me on Monday morning. This is giving me total jitters and making me nervous.

My mum totally laughed at me when she saw it. Ah wells, it is fun to explore all the hairstyles of this lifetime instead of the boring schoolgirl that has lasted me through now.

2009-05-29T21:19:00.001+08:00

I'm into the blog/livejournal thing again.

2009-05-29T16:40:00.003+08:00

Traveling by car with my parents and seeing the sights and sounds of Singapore that I rarely visit made me feel like an excited child again. The project: to take photographs before the due time for my assignment.

So we visited places that apparently my mum haven't been for more than thirty years, this was followed by going to the new Marina Barrage where my mum and I fooled around with the camera and sending the pictures to my dad's e-mail account.

Taking pictures and listening to my parents talk remind me of the times when I used to hike with both of them in this forest in the middle of nowhere. Of course, this was followed by eating which is a definite must in my family.

I think both of my parents can be hilarious sometimes, like for example: my mum and I can have a whole conversation in front of my dad about him, and he wouldn't even know about it due to his lack of hearing. I was telling her sooner or later we all have to learn hand signs, which I did when I was asking him a question yesterday evening. For example: I wanted to ask 'is the Life newspaper in the room?'

I had to mouth the word 'Life' very slowly and at the same time drawing a big box in the air with my fingers indicating the room. I know: total failure. He replied though, so I counted it as a success.

2009-05-28T16:14:00.002+08:00

I think I figured out why I'm having this huge writer's block. It's the matter of wanting to impress everybody with my 'terrific' writing that the pressure explodes my brain into an equivalent of no plot. I guess I should just let the words flow, like I did. Perhaps it's time to change it to do.

Having dinner with Matilda yesterday was definitely enlightening. It's a reminder why I miss my ex-schoolmates so much, especially with the back-and-forth discussion we always have.

And now I'm struggling with camera and lighting stills. Taking pictures give me a headache especially when I have no idea what to take. Agh!

I've recently watch an incredibly adorable film called 'Charlie Bartlett.' It has the guy from Star Trek The Movie (Anton Yelchin, who is an actual Russian) and RDJ, who plays an alcoholic father and principal struggling to be the best in both roles. Charlie Bartlett councils his schoolmates in the boy's room and at the end of it, give them drugs telling them that by taking it, it will make them feel better. The twist? Charlie Bartlett has a father in prison and a mum who is slightly crazy. The quirky movie allows you to sympathise and empathise the characters, and it's one of those movies that you will watch especially on a day you are feeling down.

Ah, Charlie Bartlett.

2009-05-09T21:04:00.003+08:00

I've been thinking, perhaps I'm not as open minded as I thought. Conversations with friends and a little story made me realise that perhaps I do belittle things and do not accept beliefs, or rather, not respecting them at all. It's tough though, since who in this world is that adaptable, but yes, I am justifying myself because it's a weird world.

I try my best to understand people views, but occasionally I they're narrow mindedness turns me off and now I suddenly realise I'm not as open minded as I would like to be. But we grow up with differently lifestyles and I'm trying to learn to see it that point of view, but I can't help but be a little angry especially on certain topics.

And because of my vivid stubbornness, I do feel that I need people to listen to me, and for their views to change. It's hard though, because I've come from a background different from many of my friends. And I wonder whether it's wrong to actually change people's views.

After all, no one really knows what is wrong or what is right. And who are we to dictate them?

2009-05-06T00:46:00.004+08:00

I hate it when I think I typed something wrongly and accidentally click the 'send' button. But yup, I'm definitely not going to think too much about it.

Quoted:
"If I ask you not to think of chocolate cake what is the first thing you think of?"
"Chocolate Cake!"

Chris Pine and Michael Weatherly have an uncanny resemblance. It's damn right creepy.

2009-05-03T18:08:00.001+08:00

Finished SGA, all five seasons.

2009-05-02T01:20:00.003+08:00

I kinda missed the old supernatural, where Sammy boy was good (instead of this weird ass greedy for blood weirdo) and the brothers get along much better despite their different ways. The episodes when it's mostly concentrated on kicking the myths and legends from windigoes, to werewolves and even shape-shifters.

Damn.

Supernatural season 1, I miss you. Think I'm going to watch it again.

2009-04-18T00:29:00.001+08:00

Everyone should go and watch this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

Because it proves how humans are so judgmental and how surprises come in the most unexpected things.

2009-04-17T21:46:00.003+08:00

I often forget how blogging allows me to stretch my vocabulary and sort my expressions out. Thus, the reason for the very dead blog. That and well, nothing interesting that caught my attention or inspired me to write.

Recently, I find myself wondering how people act the way they are. They can become suddenly detached and makes me wonder why they decide to split. And it worries me, for I wonder is it cause of my habitually annoying ways, or because of something that I am not aware of...

And I hate it when people disturb me for I just lost my train of thought.

Damn.

2009-04-09T00:38:00.003+08:00

I think the problem with watching AI is that it makes me wish I have a gift for singing. I'm looking at these singers with envy, as their musical talent shines through from playing various instruments to singing outrageous, incredibly amazing vocals. So I'm sitting on the piano, trying to learn scores that I have picked from a couple of places and as I'm playing, I feel the urge to sing. And then I mumble the words and realise how awful I sound.

I mean sure, most of us can sing as long as we're not tone deaf, the thing is, I want those amazing lungs and voice to awe and wow the audiences. It's a talent I'm sure many would want to have and I am part of that population. Imagine doing standup cabarets or singing for a musical that you love. Going to pubs and sing from the bottom of your heart with incredible soul and enjoying yourself at the same time.

It's a dream job.

2009-04-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

Fan girling for AI time.

Kris Allen was cute, and really hot.

Adam Lambert is out of the league (da bomb man).

Danny Gokey was soul.

Scott is coming back.

The rest?

Hopefully, they'll do better the next time.

2009-03-30T14:43:00.012+08:00

I was looking back my past posts and I realise I wanted to share more of Vietnam than I orginally did. I mean, there were so many things I missed out because half of the time when I blog, I'm already half asleep.

So aside from the conferences and shopping for cheap Kipling bags (S$9 and S$16), we had the traditional pho and ate by the streets. I loved how the you zha gui despite being cold, is still crispy and when deep into the hot steamy soup, it's just plain addictive. We ate that for two consecutive nights but we went to two different stores so we were able to try the different types of pho. The first night was probably more heavenly as we had traditional pho for the first time, but I loved how the second night had beef brisket and the tenderness of it just makes my mouth water.

Traditional pho often with lime and chili.

One of the more surprising good food I had was the ice-cream. It cost about $6000 dong (about S$0.60) and even though it's supposed to be vanilla, it tasted more like coconut. No wonder the woman on the plane was recommending it.
The parlor was also filled with people eating the same type of ice-cream. The ice-cream had a smooth milky texture and it's made so that it's refreshing and not too sweet. Even the cone was incredible for I believe I never tasted a cone quite like it.

Next stop is the amount of seafood I had there. Prawns, squid, clams, octopus, fish, I think I had all of them. I loved the way how they cooked it with vegetables, it made every meal very healthy. There was something I couldn't get use to though, the bamboo soup. I mean, we're not even used to the smell although my gradnma will love it. Something to do with Thai blood.

Ah, that's another thing I wanted to point out. Somehow another, Vietnamese and Thai food are oddly similar. Even the cultures are about the same. From the strong women to the sour and spicy food they eat (lime and chili, two things they can't live without). Not to mention fish sauce. The amount of fish sauce I had? Huh.

Some of the other delicacies I had were bun cha (noodles with fish sauce), bun tom (shrimp noodles), che (?) - traditional dessert which looks really disgusting but tastes really great-, and of course the unforgettable Vietnamese spring rolls.

Traditional Vietnamese fried spring rolls with noodles and fish sauce.

Honey banana fritters

And since they were once colonised by the French, they made great baguettes which we had every morning for the first three days.

The Vietnamese translators were fun to be with. And I learnt new card games from them too. It is pathetic as we seem to always play the same games and even though I may not have peers who play the same as me, it was definitely an experience.

And the cruise was relaxing and enjoyable. A couple of us went on deck to sleep open-air below the stars. It was definitely a treat especially after a couple of intense days. And jumping into the 18 degrees celsius sea was surprisingly comfortable and cooling. I think the guys who went in half naked were shivering though and some of them made a quick escape after a canon ball.

The last night of the trip, I bunked in with two other people in a supposedly twin room. Sarali, Serene and I Skyped with Esther back in Singapore where we took pictures so that my friend can post on her blog. Three of us talked way past midnight before we finally fell asleep like the dead.

And so we came back to Singapore to see my parents waving at me. And I, being an instant chatter, told them my life at Vietnam and how I reluctantly came back.

Post edit: I forgot to mention. I rode at the back of a motorcycle and a Vespa. Sweet rides.

2009-03-29T00:16:00.003+08:00

Class reunion was da bomb. I giggled my way through like a little school girl once again and ate to my hearts content. It was definitely a good evening.

Went down with PF and Jane to St. James whereby we totally stoned and did nothing while I drank my horribly diluted of Coke Vodka Coke. Just wanted to see what it was like and aside from the incredibly many reserved tables and heart thumping music, there wasn't much going on due to the early hour.

Anyway, we're supposed to head down for Play the week after they get back.

And my rash is killing me.

Stargate Atlantis, here I come.

2009-03-27T20:59:00.002+08:00

Ah, crap. Matt Giraud was so disappointed for being in the bottom three. Can't blame him, I was pretty upset too. Poor guy.

Anyway, in case I haven't mention it yet, I've converted to become an Adam Lambert supporter. I still love Danny don't get me wrong, but Adam is a genius. His arrangements are amazing and I'm so awed no matter what the judges say. Yup, I'm definitely a fanatic of his and I know if I were in America, I would definitely be voting for him. I know my mum would too with the way she watches AI every week to catch his performance.

Ahhhhh!

Fan girling is definitely bad for health.

Peace yo.

2009-03-24T01:06:00.002+08:00

First night back in my room and comfortable as it is I must say I do miss Vietnam. Perhaps is the reality of living with friends and bonds that were formed over the course of 10 days, or perhaps it's the realisation that time passes much quickly in hometown. Everything feels so rush even with an hour difference and intense the trip may have been, it was joyous, culturally educating and a remote sense of salvation.

Lying on my bed past 6pm makes me wonder whether the pass few days have been a dream. It seemed so surreal now that I'm in my comfort living zone and you wonder what happened to the days when I'm lying down on the deck and looking at the pluck-able stars.

Swimming in the sea was awesome, despite the currents it was fun, especially with the 18 degrees Celsius temperature. This trip has told me how intense some things can get, and perhaps I can't cope with pressure as well as I thought I can. For my excuse, I would like to think the human influence that has affected me and being the emotional person I am, I tend to get a little insecure in which I try to cover for it in other aspects.

Life is tough, I know, we all know. Truth is, deep down inside us we're all scared of something, it's just the question of 'what?'

We let emotions get the better of us occasionally, and at times I find it hard to curb the abrupt and unexpected clog up of throat. And I wonder why, cause it seldom happens. Perhaps cause I just want to prove myself so badly that I stutter and hesitate and pressurize myself into trying to be something better.

I should quit thinking myself as so great, it's a horrible job.

As it is, I'm closing my eyes soon enough. So I'll leave you here.

2009-03-16T21:00:00.003+08:00

As it is, I'm sitting here on the bed of my dodgy hotel writing this post in Hanoi, Vietnam. It's been fun 'squatting' down eating pho by the streets whereas the cloud of dust rises in the air. The pollution is pretty bad sure, but the weather is so soothing and much better than Singapore's own hot and humid climate. I guess we came at the right time.

The traffic is like China, whereby traffic lights are a miss thing. But it has been thoroughly enjoyable and although it's supposed to be an educational trip, it feels as though I'm on a holiday. Oh, and I learned Vietnamese with the greatest translators, and not to mention I rode on a motorcycle. Sweet.

Tomorrow will head down to Qang Ninh so that we can have a home stay in the village. No hot water probably, but oh wells, we'll definitely try the village life. I guess in a morbid way, I am looking forward to it. Though let's just say I do prefer the comforts of home.

Well as they say in Vietnamese,
tam biet!

2009-03-14T12:05:00.002+08:00

Okay, I'm leaving for Vietnam in a few hours and as scary as it is going without a parent, I'm actually pretty excited. It is supposed to be an educational trip but from what I see in the itinerary, we got plenty of fun too. Oh and we're staying on a cruise for one day! With kayaking- probably. As it is, I'm going to take a bath now, hopefully I don't forget something.

2009-03-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

Hah. Esther and Kenneth really have a sense of humor. So we met up and have Mexican before heading down to eat Island Creamery for dessert.

And then here ye come the presents. They first presented me a book. A book about robots. A book about Bionicle. A book about Bionicle called: Journey of Takanuva. Ah wells, bestest classmates joke, included with receipt and price tag. And since I found it amusing, I thought was a pretty original gift. And then, I found out it was meant to be a gag gift when out appears The Godfather DVD. Seriously brilliant.

But honestly, I really appreciate it because it's a present that reminds me of them. And it makes me smile and giggle till now.

Thanks guys, really appreciate it. :)

2009-03-07T15:14:00.002+08:00

Way with the dancing. This guy is very cool (in such a sense that he is very sporting):

2009-03-06T23:54:00.004+08:00

Oh god, Eastern Promises was so. good.

And undeniably, very sexy and eerie.

Not to mention it makes you curse and swear, and go 'ew.'

I'm going to watch it again, hopefully when I'm not constantly distracted or being distracted. Kinda spoils the mood.

Oh. And a very sexy Viggo.

2009-03-02T23:47:00.004+08:00

I feel my blog lacks the soul it once had. Probably from trying too hard to blog and saying the right words all the time.

So now, I'm going to stop; blog with my heart again instead of my mind.

Sometimes, you just feel betrayed about the trust you give a person. Sure, perhaps when one feel its family, they feel that they should share it around. But when you specifically mention not to bring it out, you can't help feeling betrayed, even if it seems childish and petty. You feel angered and at times taken aback and although it's not really tragic, these emotions still run wild within you. And you feel as though you can't trust the person again.

Isn't it a hard subject?

There are times when you feel you can't argue your case, when all your words dry up and you are just talking nonsense. You ramble but you have no idea what the hell you're talking about because everything just seems unimportant. And at times you feel hollow, like there's an empty gap that can't be filled even when you talk about it. You practically well- gaggle.

Sometimes the only way you can escape everything is when you build a fantasy in your mind. A place where you write your own stories that are up for imagining. For me, I'm too lazy to write, so I just picture them in my head imagining sketchy faces and smooth dialogue. These stories are always cropped up in my head, but when it all comes down to grammar, vocabulary and punctuation, I just struggle because they're such a hassle to write. And it's this feeling of incompetency that puts me away from writing.

After all, I do enjoy pleasant writing, and hates it when there are grammatical errors all around. Who is to say one won't enjoy it? I guess it's a slow build up and I'm reading around to improve my writing. And despite setbacks around, hopefully I will be able to write a story over 10 000 words one day.

2009-03-02T00:42:00.003+08:00

Carrying skis up and down are giving me the most horrible biceps ache ever. I can barely even lift anything, and everything just hurts whenever I try to carry something heavy.

And, seriously, I have to cure my absent mindedness. I'm always so lost in my little world that I tend to forget my more important things i.e. my hand phone. And without it? It feels like part of me is missing. Technology these days can kill a person. Seriously.

2009-02-26T12:49:00.000+08:00

Sometimes listening to music on the radio is much better than listening it on your mp3.

2009-02-18T19:44:00.002+08:00

Oh yes, the failure of night cycling.

But other than that, it was fun to hang out with Esther and Kenneth this morning/last night. We practically chatted, walk, camwhored and eat the whole night through and admittedly it was one of the most fun thing I have done in a while.

So, we're going to use Skype and conference later, hopefully Kenneth will tell us his experience as an actor, as a ... get this: rapist.

Disturbing I know.

2009-02-16T19:31:00.003+08:00

Two things to note: Having to exercise after being stagnant for a long time is a pain in the ass. I could barely lift a muscle while in gym today, and even though it's partly due to lack of sleep, I never thought I'll actually hate gym.

On another note, removal of braces is the most painful process of it all. My whole mouth just - bled.

And tomorrow, it's the long awaited night cycling - finally.

Alas, it's finally the end of year 1.

2009-02-10T01:15:00.004+08:00

Shit! I want to see A Guide to Recognizing Your Saints again!

Damndamndamndamn

Problem: I got a feeling it's way off this planet.

2009-02-09T20:00:00.002+08:00

With stiff fingers, I went to play the piano. I got to say, without the pressures from examination, playing the piano is actually relaxing, takes off the mental stress and allows me to just have fun.

2009-02-08T00:37:00.003+08:00

Guilt drenches my soul, and sometimes I'm so appalled by my pettiness and rambles.

I wish that I can forgive easily instead of holding on to long lost forgotten misgivings. But sometimes it's hard to cope with the hurt that lashes out at unexpected timings and that my only excuse is that I'm sensitive by nature.

So we take on the emotional terrain again, hopefully it can be all forgiven.

2009-02-04T23:46:00.002+08:00

Found it! I just want to remember this for life. I'll probably re-post it again if it comes up on youtube.

Just so you can be awed together with me:

Hollywood Week

2009-02-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

This year American Idol is pretty impressive. I went back to this reality TV program because of Season 7 and I'm yet to be disappointed. I think after Ruben it kinda went down a little but it's back for the running.

Anyway, one of the most noticeable guy got to be Danny Gokey. You wouldn't think it, but when he starts to sing, the charisma just surrounds him despite the geeky glasses. I had goosebumps. Here's the link to hear him:

Danny Gokey Audtions

And when I have hollywood week I'll definitely post it up because he was good!

Oh and his back story was really touching and he wasn't sobbing pitifully like some of the other contestants. Hope he at least makes in to the top 12.

There were many pretty faces as well.

2009-02-02T22:50:00.004+08:00

My Mac acted weirdly today whereby it shut down itself - i kinda unscrewed my battery before it fully registered the adaptor was there I think. I hate it when that happens and it occurred twice already.

I'm so scared that my Mac crashes and all my precious 'jewels' will be all gone. I detest it when my Mac feels so 'clean.'

1TB hard disk, here I come!

2009-01-31T19:24:00.002+08:00

To my friends:

"I love you, not for what you are, but what I am, when I am with you.
I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but what you are making of me.
I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

I love you for putting your hand into my heaped up heart and passing over all the frivolous and weak things that you cannot help seeing there, and for drawing out into the light all the beautiful and radiant things that no one else has looked quite far enough to find...

I love you because you have done more than any creed could have done to make me good, and more than any fate could have done to make me happy.

You have done it without a touch, without a word, without a sign.
You have done it by being yourself.
Perhaps that is what being a friend means after all."

-On Friendship by Roy Croft

2009-01-30T21:27:00.001+08:00

Life is a double edged sword.

2009-01-28T15:02:00.003+08:00

Oh my god, this just came in:

Kim Manners passed away!

Being a big fan of Supernatural, I find it quite unbelievable that the man himself has moved on.

Sigh.

And now, Zong is going to sleep.

2009-01-28T01:03:00.004+08:00

Chinese New Year came too early this year.
The number of relatives who visited this year dropped drastically, though my mum claims they will visit over the course of the next 13 days.

Oh, how weird is it to receive red packets from your brother!?

Eyes Wide Shut was an eye opening experience.
It's like a sexual club for the old, rich and depressed.

I lost about twenty bucks to Blackjack. Shows how great my gambling luck is.

2009-01-26T17:58:00.002+08:00

I'm taking a break from the Chinese New Year festives to inform all budding film lovers the following event:

Oscar Nominations 2009

I'll return in a day's time to tell you my take on it.

2009-01-25T01:51:00.002+08:00

The Untouchables was a pretty impressive movie.

I was shown a particular scene from this movie twice before I got around watching it and I got to say, I wasn't a slight bit disappointed (except being distracted from my Dad who kept on calling for me).

Usually, in a movie, I love to explore the plot. How engaging the film is before I go on analyzing the editing, cinematography, etc. I supposed that's why usually I have to watch a movie twice to notice the other stuff.

And usually, as long as the plot is good enough I would watch it again.

Oh, not to mention looking at the actors. I love Kevin Costner here, and young Andy Garcia was...wow. Just wow. I mean compare him to Ocean's Eleven, I nearly didn't recognise the guy!

So enough of my raving, enjoy Chinese New Year everyone!

`privatehaven is taking a break!

2009-01-24T12:15:00.002+08:00

In the end, I met up with half of da clique and thier friends to watch Bride Wars.

Oh god, the thinking of Cel and I?

Let's just say we have other thoughts.

2009-01-23T11:14:00.002+08:00

Occasionally, you can't help feeling a little disappointed, especially when you had great expectations of something or someone. The feeling is nostalgic that put you in a mood where you wish to lighten up but in truth suffocating. Then you try to think of fond memories instead, and perhaps it is a little improvement from where you were going, but sometimes you must wonder how long is it before you break and stop to reach out.

This morning started out ugly. My fault I admit.
But on a more positive side, I finally got my haircut! Which by the way is totally weird but you'll slowly learn how to appreciate it. But recently I always feel great after a haircut, whether it's ugly or not. Just the lighter feeling off my shoulders when i wash my hair puts this simple burden off my shoulders.

And today I'm going to pour myself on all the films I'm supposed to watch but never got around to it.

2009-01-23T00:02:00.004+08:00

It's been a long while since I came back from an outing tired and exhausted from over excess laughter.

On an upscale note, I finally got my wallet! I have to say I think it looked much better than the other one despite me lovin dogs. I have to be more weary and careful from now on. Although let's just say I'm paranoid enough now to check my bag at least once before and after I get off the bus.

Kenneth and Esther thankfully accompanied me, and after buying the wallet we headed down to eat steamboat. There were funny conversations that i will remember because Esther and her quirky thinking is worth remembering.

Thinking of it now still brings me into fits of laughter, despite being brain dead.

Although by the end of the day we were carefully stoned sitting in Macs, I believe we had great fun. Somehow another they managed to alliance and made fun of me. Well, at least I managed to get in a jab or two. *Clears throat*

Either ways, I did want to praise them here but I figured their egos are big enough.

Cheerio!

Somehow another, writing always brings peace into my mind.

2009-01-21T23:13:00.005+08:00

I'm not usually a fan of romance films, but Casablanca made me fall in love with it. It is one of those movie I suspect Esther will like and will definitely go 'So sweet!'

For it is.

They have some wonderful quotes too, for example:

Captain Renault: Rick, there are many exit visas sold in this café, but we know that you've never sold one. That is the reason we permit you to remain open.
Rick: Oh? I thought it was because I let you win at roulette.
Captain Renault: That is another reason.

There is something about the male characters in the film, though not dashingly handsome, they do bring out an aura around them that is charismatic and allow people to be drawn in to them. IIsa has the most shiny eyes ever! It appears watery, but you do get memerised by her dole look.

And I enjoy the dry wit from Rick, as well as Captain Renault who surprised me as being one of the characters I didn't like initially but eventually adored.

The twist at the end of it made me laugh and smile. Let's just say it's one of those feel good movies that you should watch whenever you are down.

Aw man, shucks. I think I fell in love with the film. I'm going to watch it again soon.

2009-01-21T01:30:00.002+08:00

Today my dear friends, is where I am living in history. The first African American of the United States of America has been inaugurated.

Watching the ceremony, I see the citizens of America crying, touched by The President's confident and charismatic speech. People's face in respect and in awe as they watch their new leader rise and try to make the nation a better place.

Never knew inauguration ceremonies to be so fun.

Aside from that, the week of Smallville and Supernatural is back! So promising what the future beholds for Smallville, and I do hope Lex Luthor will come back somewhere in Season 8.

2009-01-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

Brown rice is actually pretty delicious, funny how when you get older you appreciate the healthier things in life.

The great expedition of hunting for railway tracks happened today with good ole' buddies Esther and Kenneth.

All right, it was meant to sound grand but I guess it didn't really work out.

So, to sum it up: Esther wanted to take pictures of railway tracks and Kenneth and I followed her. It was a rather hot day despite the colder temperatures the day before and I had sunburn. I didn't believe it until my mum said "next time remember to put sun-block or your skin will be wrinkled up."

Right.

I'm trying not to boost their egos, but as usual hanging out with both of them is fun. Kenneth and I tried to hide behind the bushes in order to scare Esther, but it was a complete and utter failure.

Oh and we saw monkeys, thank god they weren't doing embarrassing things which I had the chance to experience the last time.

I think I got to widen my vocabulary. I hate saying things like 'awesome' all the time. It's annoying.

2009-01-18T02:00:00.001+08:00

It's fun to laugh at your cousin's expose. Especially if they're not embarrassed about it.

2009-01-16T23:26:00.003+08:00

It was a radically awesome day. It was after all fun with Kenneth and Esther day! We totally rocked at Cafe Cartel sitting there for 5 hours straight. Thank goodness the place was mostly empty where we could laugh our asses off without anyone complaining.

After sitting around and chatting, we went down to town to look for clothes and shoes. Not to mention pairing each other up with various mannequins and hot men and women. Though they denied themselves. Oh wells.

Hanging out with them always bring me stomach muscles. We always laugh to the point where we don't know what we're laughing about. Humorous as they are, they brought joy to my otherwise mundane day and lifted my spirits up. They are always a fun pair to be with, basically cause they drive me crazy with their laughter and jokes.

I actually started doing a meme. Until I got too tired.

Sorry Jin!

2009-01-13T22:38:00.003+08:00

Milk.

It's one of those things that surprisingly sooth your soul. A comfort drink that reminds me of my childhood and home. It can be taken warm or cold and goes extremely well with cookies/biscuits. Especially the white chocolate macadamia kind.

It's especially best taken fresh.

Memoirs of Milk.

2009-01-13T00:22:00.006+08:00

This post is going to be about Domineering and Submissive characters in the un-kinky sense.

Some people are overwhelmingly domineering in nature that's it's hard for them to stay passive. Whereas I met some who are submissive to the point that they can't stand up for themselves and often need others to control them.

Well, I'm a little bit of both. I supposed it's who I am with. There are few people out there whom I know I can be equal to and the likely candidate as of now is Cel, and probably most of the other clique whom I don't feel pressured to act as either.

It's tiring sometimes, being either dominant or submissive because I guess I'm not made for either.

2009-01-13T00:10:00.001+08:00

ZongL's a _____ idiot who's gonna be a ______ idiot all her life.

2009-01-11T19:55:00.000+08:00

Oh. my. god. Ever felt some point in your life where everyone on just get on your nerves?

2009-01-09T18:29:00.004+08:00

Here it is everybody, the very promised post.

So aside from wasting time going to school today (where we "hi!" everybody who came for open house), Esther, Kenneth and I went for Aston which is much better than taking it home to eat (which was probably the only reason why I went to school in the first place). Basically we laughed our hearts out teasing one another and watching Kenneth suffer with his horrible sickness.
Followed by the very full lunch, Esther said something like "I feel like eating Island Creamery" and before long I find myself sitting on the bus heading to the lovely ice cream place and getting ourselves stuffed.

Note to self: Milo and Pineapple tart ice cream goes very well together, especially with the biscuits inside.

We spent a surprisingly three hours there and by the time we finally left, everybody whom I saw came the same time as us or even after us disappeared.

And just in case they want to know, I'm reading their stories for storytelling.

*evil laughs*

2009-01-08T20:59:00.006+08:00

I promise myself today that I'm gonna start taking my assignments more seriously. I realised I've been in la la land without thinking much about what I'm doing, always rushing for my assignments at the last minute and basically doing half-hearted work. Not to mention the fact that I barely study for my theory exams.

I've got to talk to people who are not competitive to get ideas, to share our knowledge with each other and to combine them. So many times we are so caught up trying to best each other that we forget two heads are better than one. That no film can be completed without a crew for the best work is with the help of others. An edge of competitiveness is good but don't be selfish I suppose, and learn from others like how you should let others teach you.

And that's why I love my current class.

Other than that, I wish sometimes how I imagine the ideas in my mind can come out on paper nicely, but it never happens and it disappoints me. And I still feel it, the passion burning for making films, I just hope entering film school won't extinguish it before I even start in the working world.

I'm so scared sometimes in my heart that I'm not good enough that I feel like running away.

Thank god I have great friends though, supporting me in whatever crisis I have in so many ways.

2009-01-05T16:45:00.002+08:00

The panic clock strikes occasionally and it sends you cold sweat, we push things to the last hour and sob inside when everything seems to be going wrong.

Sometimes, I wish I can be confident (even if it is by appearance) in what I do. I depend too much on people's opinion that I know it isn't good for me, but I find consolation whenever I find others my age doing the same. After all, mostly whatever we do isn't it usually to seek people's opinion? Or rather more accurately to seek approval.

I often forget myself that I do the things I do cause I enjoy it.

For goodness sake, Zong blunders whenever she is in foul mood or when she feels uncomfortable and feels herself going berserkly crazy.

2009-01-01T12:10:00.002+08:00

2008 has been good to me, but alas we must part.
With many achievements and fond memories it is probably one year that I will always remember.

I'm not one who set new year resolutions, so there wouldn't be any. But I do look forward to 2009 especially since I started it with a bang.

2009-01-01T02:42:00.001+08:00

To all my lovely friends whom have bless me with their wisdom:

Happy New Year to you, and allow 2009 to give you it's best.

Cheers!
ZongL

2008-12-30T21:59:00.002+08:00

Warning: Contains ZongL ramblings.

More often than not, talking to my dad makes me want to pull my hair out in frustration.

I get that his old, and thus hard of hearing but honestly, it's easier talking to my grandfather than him. And it's frustrating because I have to repeat what I say many times and he doesn't reply even when he hears so I have no idea whether he heard what I said or not.

I try to be patient- I really do!- but half of the time it gets on my nerves and at the end of it I huff and give up.

I totally envy those living in London right now because I want to go for the Merlin meet up! And I swear, if I live in the US I would probably attend all the conventions that are in my state.

But as it is, I'm celebrating the coming new year with the craziest bunch of people I know who does the silliest, most embarrassing things in the world.

2008-12-29T01:28:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I would rather do good things than great things.

2008-12-29T00:42:00.004+08:00

I'm not usually an alcoholic drinker, and only drink when there are occasions, even so I rarely take in alcohol at all.

But tonight, wow. I went from lime vodka to baileys and to apple martini. I never actually drank the whole cup but damn it, it was definitely a pleasant taste. I supposed it's because of the sweetness of it all, especially the apple martini which I think I fell in love with.

And god, IP Man was extravagant. I was pretty surprised at how well the show turned out, with subtle humor and eye bulging kung fu moves. Movies that are usually based on a really story are often very well done, but this movie went a step ahead.

Initially, I was weary to watch the show, but eventually the non stop persuasion from my friends made me decide to catch it.
I did not have a single moment of regret as there weren't any draggy parts at all. The action choreography leave you at the edge of your seat and rooting for the good guy makes your heart soar when he wins.

The only time I was disappointed was when I had to leave to go to the toilet.

2008-12-26T23:54:00.002+08:00

I never knew hearing you sisters-in-arms arguing about the hottest guy in Twilight can be so draining. I think the conversation when something like this:

"Edward Cullen is so good looking"
"NO! Robert Pattinson did not do Edward justice"
"He's only good looking as Cedric Diggory."

And we go on and on and on...

"Jasper is so ugly!"

But it was funny. I still think that Twilight defies the general law for vampires.

For a person who never really truly celebrate Christmas, I got to admit, this year was probably the best Christmas I had ever!
It's usually the family dinner with turkey and ham but this year I had the joy of making presents and receiving them. I had meals that made my wallet empty and had dinners that was more than worth.

Christmas sparkled this year with laughter and friends, and I supposed it's the course of youth where we meet up and celebrate Christmas. Perhaps when I'm old and wilted, I'll just be like my dad and sink into a cozy chair watching the television.

2008-12-25T11:51:00.001+08:00

Well it's Christmas everyone and although I'm not crazy about it (except for wonderful turkey and ham), Merry Christmas to one and all!

2008-12-23T10:35:00.002+08:00

Oh my god. When my mum used short forms to write her e-mail I felt so weird. I mean, I barely even use short forms anymore.

*Shivers*

2008-12-22T23:28:00.003+08:00

"A true friend is when silence is enough for both of you to listen."

I stink- literally.

I must say, it's always nice to chat up with your old buddy again after a month of silence and realised there's no awkwardness at all.

Where you just ramble about every day's going and comings and each other's boring life.

And geeze, I'm on the USC hype again.

And I should really consider the other schools.

2008-12-17T12:07:00.001+08:00

Staring Jack Black, John C Riley and many more!

"Prop 8 - The Musical" by Jack Black

I wanted to post this a long time ago, but as I decided not to, I realised I wanted to keep this in my memories.

2008-12-17T00:38:00.004+08:00

So, my holidays have started and I'm off trying to remember I do have projects but at the same time watching all the incredible TV series.

I love BBC, I remember they had Life on Mars which was awesome and now lovely Merlin which, despite appealing to audiences who are children is one of the better fantasy TV series I've watched. Added to the face it has a big fan base and there you have it. And of course there is Highlander which I am now on the second season and I'm waiting for Smallville and Supernatural to be back.

To those who don't know it yet, yes I'm a TV whore.

Okay, aside from all my makeshifts fantasy realm, let's get back on track on reality.

I've just came back from chilling out with Hazel whom I thought brought a whole new level to the word 'chill.' Starbucks is practically our friend where we just talk about everything and nothing at all. Funny thing is, we did exactly the same thing we did when we last met up. Yup, pretty much very boring but who cares? I haven't seen her in ages.

Recently I've been enlightened that perhaps I shouldn't take things too seriously, whereby it becomes an emotional burden. And when you don't think too much, you realise life is much easier to go by, and you enjoy yourself more. After all, we only live once.

I love Reader's Digest, it's one of the things I read on bus and try not to burst into tears and making a scene. They have the most moving and inspirational stories out there, and we know they're mostly true. I find myself falling for the everyday heroes that can be just you and me, and I'm so inspired to do good things instead of great things. And the vocabulary they use: I can pick up a word or two from each article to boost and expand on my limited own. They make each article even more beautiful than it already is.

Ah wells, to those who complain I rarely blog, here it is: my very boring life.

2008-12-14T02:35:00.002+08:00

Because I just found this and had to share it:

2008-12-01T01:21:00.004+08:00

I find it kind of amusing that for some movies although they didn't have good reviews, nor were they box office hits or some classic movie that everyone had preening and worshiping or even oscar winning, they have a pretty good fanbase to come to a point where they can make many sequels of the show. Take for example: The Fast And The Furious.

The movie and plot is not award winning, but the attraction is there especially with the furiously hot fast cars with the babes and the dudes. They also have a pretty large fan base out there especially with charmingly wit characters.

The fans are so great that they're having a sequel in 2009: The Fast And The Furious 4- although I think they messed up the timeline.

Goes to show sometimes all you need are hot cars, hot babes and hot dudes. Oh and not to mention gorgeous, exciting, adrenaline pumping car racing scenes.

Don't forget you have Vin Diesel, Paul Walker and Michelle Rodriguez.

Kind of make The Godfather seem like a joke.

2008-11-28T17:49:00.002+08:00

Yup, I'm back. Because I wish to rant on how my film spoiled. Two films in fact!

I have no idea what happened because I managed to take a few pictures before the whole thing went wild. And went I put in the other film, it told me it had an error, thus not being able to take any pictures.

Weird.

2008-11-28T16:51:00.002+08:00

Photography can drive you nuts! Oh don't get me wrong, it's fun, yes. But when you're doing it for school, let's just say you'll rather take a digital camera and camwhore. But I love the peace you get taking photos, and I'm going to the nature reserve to take after I post this up. After all, I have been neglecting this blog of mine since I was rushing for my podcast to finish.

After my photography project, I'm pretty much free.

Well anyways, I'm back to the Smallville hype again and although it is sad not to see Lex Luthor around, Oliver Queen kind of makes up for it. I'm going berserkly crazy with DC comics as well. I have Batman and now waiting for Batman and Superman comics.

And it's official! My social life is dead.

It's just that every time when I have too much free time, everyone else is busy, but when everyone else is free, I'm the one who's too busy. Seesh!

Good thing there's family.

2008-11-20T19:53:00.003+08:00

Hey all! My China photos has been uploaded onto Facebook. I'm sorry I haven't been updating.
Due to amount of time spent in school and getting back late, it's a chore to reflect on my life. Aching bones and droopy eyelids- you can blame them.

2008-11-08T13:42:00.004+08:00

It is very sad when your muse runs out of you when you're writing a story which is highly probable. It circulates my mind pushing my writer's limits and wishes to type it down. However, immediately when I geared up to type, my muse runs away screaming madly for somebody else to capture it and leaves me drained and saddened.

I love writing, I love how I am allowed to let my imagination run wild but often gets stuck halfway when something prominent happens to my character when I'm not looking. So when the muse strikes, I either pen it down or type furiously onto my laptop hoping it does not run out on me soon enough.

The worse part is, when you're stuck with something because you can't find the word to describe your character. You thrive through your brain to bring out the bulk of vocabulary you have learnt over the decade or so years, but can't find it. And so you abandon the plot and rack your brains trying to find another word to string everything together but nothing is as good as what you initially wanted.

I often take a break, but my breaks drag out to a point where I abandon my stories and when I read back after three months or so, I realised how good it is but can't bring myself back into the mood to finish it up. I guess that's why I can never write novels. The only thing I manage to complete were short stories and drabbles, poetry and blog posts. Nothing long and excruciating that I can be proud of.

Currently, I have a set of two stories waiting to be written. Ever since I stopped, I never seem to get it going again. Perhaps I should try and open it up, and hopefully I can succeed and inform you all I have progressed.

2008-11-06T20:46:00.002+08:00

Staring long and hard at my wardrobe today, I realised I needed to do some shopping. Then, I realised I have been thinking the same thing since the start of this year.

I detest shopping with a passion, thus tending to procrastinate when I have to buy some clothes but it's a point of getting ridiculous for I have been wearing repeated shirts down to school for the few months. Okay, so maybe we're not there for a fashion parade, but all I need is some plain Ts that I can regularly change into.

So, thus shopping.

It is difficult for me to shop for my clothes, I have passed the baggy shirts and jeans era though I still put them on when needed, and I've come to a conclusion that people can be so puny. Seriously, walk down those night markets and you'll see that female t-shirts are made for anorexic people. They are so bloody small that it becomes skimpy and makes people look like whores.
They just don't notice it.

And looking at the other side of the shop, I for one wish that I am a man. Look at how cool and comfortable their clothing are. The vintage look looks best on male clothing, with more variety of the sorts. I am always tempted to hop over the other side and snag a male tee, but the bagginess drapes and drowns my body despite it's comfort.

God, you should seriously inspire people to create shirts of the female kind whereby it fits people who are bigger in kind. Make it a trend, make it classy, make it fashionable; whatever. Just do something with those anorexic clothes and have more variety in sizes.

2008-11-05T18:54:00.003+08:00

picture from: news.filefront.com

I was driven to write many types of article regarding Obama vs. Mccain campaign but decided on just telling as it is.

This election was probably one of the most captivating and interesting in a long time. Granted, four years ago the idea of election in the United States barely interest me, in my thoughts it went something like this: Bush vs. who?

But four years later, I find myself reading every article regarding each man's campaign, whether it was the charismatic appearance of Barack Obama, or the enticingly funny John Mccain. Either which who win would lead us hopefully out of the depressing economy which probably is the leading problem of today.

'Spread the wealth' was Obama's main idea, and I have to say, it is very appealing especially at the state the world's economy is in. Hopefully, with this exchange, one of the most powerful man on earth can help us get out of this endless recession.

What worries me the most however, is the white supremacist who deemed fit to judge a man on his skin colour. I thought we were out of that era, especially with education at it's peak. I supposed there will always be that group of people who plays judge, jury and executioner by a person's appearance.

Sure, we are all a little racist, but honestly, must we go to that extend whereby we kill people we naturally hate by sight? I'm an anti-violence antagonist for as cheesy and lame as it sound, I support peace in the world.

2008-10-27T22:10:00.002+08:00

it's been awhile. i've decided i will put up my pictures in Facebook instead eventually when i get my bum to it. i still have a whole lot of pictures i have yet to develop and yup, zong is way behind time.

the reason why i have not been updating because i have another blog, for bloody school, and it's annoying because once you have your thoughts on one place, you don't feel like writing it to another. so this will stay empty for awhile, until i feel like grabbing my axis again.

ciao!

2008-10-16T22:37:00.003+08:00

this was what my China trip like:

Home.Beijing.Chengdu.Jiu Zhai Gou.Chengdu.Beijing.Ji Lin.Beijing.Home

8 plane flights in all. the reason? because the planning was horrible as i was supposed to go to Beijing first but due to unexpected circumstances, Jiu Zhai Gou was first.

China? well, it's like a hate love relationship. i love the history i learn there, from the Forbidden City to the The Summer Palace and walking the stair of the Great Wall. an experience that i will remember with unqiue view in Ji Lin and Jiu Zhai Gou.

some aspects i couldn't stand were the toilets. being the spoiled brat i was, it took me a while to get use to the squat toilets for toilets bowls has become publicly used.

the culture is a whole lot different and i certainly learnt more things than i would have sitting on my bum in front of the laptop surfing about China.

i'll explain more about it once i get the pictures on the way.

2008-09-24T16:52:00.003+08:00

humanity has brought us to do this date and this state.
i have heard often that humanity now is more cruel then ever but have we forgotten the past where people aren't educated and tend to act more on their actions instead of keeping it to themselves.

have we forgotten the times when the Jews were unfairly punished, when the African Americans did not have the right say and sit at the end of the bus and were often scorned at. granted, this still happened today but changes as it is brought about the first African American that may happen to be the President of the United States.

not to forget the ancient times where blood was a common sight, where treachery and beheading is given to even the most simplest form of crime or even the innocents due to corruption. woman were seen as servants and often had to bow their heads to men like they were Zeus.

how could we not forget as well the bigots of the last century where homosexuals alike do not have say peace in the lights of hour and are condemned more so than today.

notes that these are just the tip of an icebergs. many tragedies have come out since human existence.

education has changed the world, for better and for worse. granted we have atomic bombs and nuclear power in the making and those can be disastrous but can we not forget the cruelty of mankind that was in the past that perhaps is the reason for today's world.

in life, we tend to focus on the here and now and we- more often than not- forget the lessons we were thought of the harshness of humans.

i suppose life has never been a safe place whether you lived in the past or the now, so we shouldn't complain as to what we face these days and act upon saving it.

China trip tomorrow, enjoy the rest of your holidays who still are on holidays. and to those that are busy studying for their upcoming exams, work hard dudes.

2008-09-21T22:56:00.004+08:00

season 8 of Smallville premiere was a blast! i love every inch of the 41min 58sec of it because it was exhilarating and made a big come back.
i'm so glad i skipped the other 6 seasons where i just read the spoilers and wet straight to season 8.
i actually wanted to watch it only because of Oliver Queen but since his going to be a season regular, supposed i'm going to keep watching it now. further more, it's getting more interesting even without Superman's arch nemesis.

and of course there is Lois Lane, how can you not love her? she totally kick ass and the squabbles she has with Clark is so hilarious.

other then my Smallville rant, i've been eating tons recently.

cheap and good food is always the ways to go.

sometimes i find myself very spoiled. i try to avoid it but i throw tantrums like a little child on the void of not being able to get what she wants.
i yell, curse and on the edge of stamping my foot but walk away before i resort to that.
i have nasty temper that just get worst everytime and you know how they say 'all good things go unpunished'? i often wonder about that.

the truth of sayings all.

2008-09-19T18:08:00.003+08:00

hesitation makes it easier.

so what say you my exam is finally over, thank god.
i thought i did pretty okay but my heart tells me otherwise but i hope i scrape a pass. i should be able to.
no rot that out.

i will pass, i know i will because the exam was okay.

enough of renting, let's make a move on.

now we're back to the last two episodes of Dexter and tomorrow and the week after it's catching up with pals that i've been neglecting.

i'm looking forward to my trip to China because i just love the cultural stuff that only China can bring out with the roots and depth of it. seeing the Great Wall will be marvelous too because there is something to be said seeing one of the Wonders of The World. being a major history buff, China definitely appeals to my inner fascination with the country. food wise, i hope i'll be eating homemade noodles at the street side. there's something appealing eating at a dirty place because the food just taste better. or maybe it's my quirkiness that finds the appeal with it.

and i'm exhausted now, what with nerves acting up just now while i was pacing the common hallway. even food didn't cure it.
maybe fanfic will.

2008-09-18T10:57:00.008+08:00

these few days, well i've been pretty busy which explains the lack of posts.

so, i went to the zoo and the first thing out of my thoughts were - boring- but when you have the opportunity to feed the kangaroos and the baboons, it was actually pretty fun. crazy monkeys, fierce hungry white tigers, if you go at the right time you realise things are always not the same as you think they are.

there are plenty of times when we become extremely greedy especially when there are a variety of food. when it becomes a huge amount where we gorge ourselves full. the water we drink gurgles within our body where we try to burp the gas out. and because we want to try everything, we never stop and we keep on eating, eating and eating...

barbecued ostrich, crocodile and salmon meat, with stingray, lamb kabab at the side.

seafood spaghetti and chilli crab.

and the cold seafood platter that is simply irresistible.

2008-09-10T22:37:00.001+08:00

i love the mundane things in life, for example:

i love cucumber with cheese sandwiches.
they're the best.

2008-09-07T14:32:00.002+08:00

parents can be so ignorant and annoying at times.

here we go people,

sexiest males:

1.

Matthew Settle - a war soldier, a dad, this guy is just getting famous.

2.

Josh Duhamel - whether he is being President of Operations for the Montecito or Captain William Lennox, this guy just look good on screen. he will capture your attention right away.

3.

Dave Annable- he has this dole look that charms you.

4.

Spike from 'Buffy The Vampire Slayer' (James Marsters) - i remembered watching the show just to see him. the swagger, the accent the bad arse attitude.

5.

Dexter from 'Dexter' (Michael C. Hall) - this guy is good looking, add in his dark and morbid personality you have a sexy man in making.

6.

River Phoenix - one of the youngest actor who died and still have many die hard fans in the making.

7.

Lex Luthor from 'Smallville' (Michael Rosenbaum) - he's bald, rich and should own a playboy mansion. did anyone notice how buff he is?

8.

Ryan Gosling - from the high school playboy to the drug addict teacher this man has played various rows that just makes him sexy. even when he was a little to plump in Lars and The Real Girl- it made him sexy in his own way.

9.

Dean Winchester from 'Supernatural' (Jensen Ackles) - his funny, brash and able to kick ghosts and devils alike ass.

10.

Johnny Depp - when i saw this picture, i couldn't help it, i knew i must put this up. added the fact he eccentric like hell and owns a island well it just adds up. it is a bonus he is such a loving father.

2008-09-04T16:48:00.012+08:00

warning: heavy images ahead.

sexiest female stars: (in no particular order)
1.

Shane from 'The L Word' (Katherine Moennig) - look at her! i believe she was one of my first girl crushes; anyone who watches The L Word got to be mesmerized by her.

2.

Shalimar Fox from Mutant X (Victoria Pratt) - she's hot, sexy and able to kick ass. not to mention able to wear leather too.

3.

Natalie Portman - one of the few woman who can carry of the bald head look.

4.

Leisha Hailey - look at that smile! just look at it! there's something about her that is charmingly cute and yet sexy. rare combination

5.

Kristin Kreuk - delicate piece of flower.

6.

Charlize Theron- i'm always so awed by her. she's one of the woman i idolize because her personality makes her awesome.

7.

Daniela Sea - she has the nicest eyes.

8.

Jennifer Love Hewitt - she speaks to the ghost. enough said.

9.

Eva Mendes - she's, well, sassy.

10.

Portiade Rossi - she was awesome in Ally Mcbeal and now Ellen Degeneres wife.

2008-09-02T19:20:00.002+08:00

somehow, the food tastes better whenever my mum makes it. or prepares it for me. last night dinner was the best i ate in awhile since my mum mashed it up for me. delicious.

must be some secret of mothers.

2008-08-31T12:21:00.002+08:00

in my family, my mum is usually the one who expects great things from you. my dad who congratulates of whatever you have achieved. i came to an understanding so and the balance works out.

i have finally chosen the male and females to be on my sexiest character/actors list. now is a matter of narrowing it down to the top 10.

2008-08-30T11:04:00.002+08:00

watching WALL.E., well it was those type of movies that surprise you. i've enjoyed it, but mildly put it was artistically well made. and the concept was what is reflected of today's society. i especially love how the people who survived on automated chairs were shown as heavily overweight people.

not moving frequently = fat = unhealthy.

because those people were fat that when they took their first few steps out of the automated chair, they become so proud of themselves.

and i lost my wallet, which felt as though i lost my life and have to start rebuilding it.